New and Old Relationships

Many new people have entered my life recently and it has become increasingly apparent to me how easily connections can be made... and sometimes lost. Having recently started a very new chapter in my life after some rough events, I found myself letting myself be open to new experiences and just letting life lead me where it will. Because of this, I've met some amazing people whom I hope will be my friends for a longtime to come.

CRU has been absolutely amazing for me where I have met a whole different circle of people that I would never have run into otherwise. I was recruited by my friend, Ben Calvert, who I knew from CGMC to join CRU. He came up to me and asked if I had ever thought of being a coxswain. At first I thought he was hitting on me, but then he actually explained what a coxswain was and that I had HIGHLY desirable physical qualities that they needed... finally, a sport where my height/weight are desired! I agreed to try it out and it has been a blast ever since! The boys (and a few girls) are a great bunch of people; I'd say a different kinda gay than the chorus boys in that there tends to be a little less drama or need for attention... guaranteed, there still is that good ol' catty humor! Because I didn't know any of these gents before, I was able to tell them as little or as much about my recent breakup as I chose to and they were all very supportive and instantly caring. Thanks, CRU!

On the flip-side... there have been a few people that I probably will not see or hear from again because of the breakup. In-laws, friends of my ex, acquaintances... people that I liked and enjoyed knowing, but no longer feel comfortable being the one to contact them. I will miss them but am incredibly glad that I had a chance to know them when I did and hope that, at the very least, I will be kept informed as to their well-being.

I guess, overall, I feel grateful that so many wonderful people have been a part of my life and know that if you allow yourself to get close to people, yes, you open yourself to heartbreak and some pain, but the amazingly positive and loving relationships far out-weight the bad... it is worth the risk, by all means.